You can’t have it both ways.
You can’t say, “I need to know every single thing that’s going to happen exactly when it’s going to happen. I don’t want any surprises. I need to know, and I will get an entourage that’s big enough that I will keep everything in my life in perfect, perfect balance all the time, and nothing will ever go wrong in my life.”
You can’t say that—and sometimes you do—and also say “Oh, Universe, surprise and delight me.”
You want to be loose, so that you’re ready for the magic that the Universe has lined up for you.
And there’s a lot of it.